Revisited from January 1, 2009
A hidden secret about me is my issue with time. I believe only Bruce and my parents perhaps one of the Erin’s understands my secret about time. And now I shall share it will all. I have no concept of time. I remember hours upon hours spent trying to understand the concept of time as a child. Quarter hour, half hour, tomorrow, yesterday. And god help me, I love you more today than yesterday… Bruce bought a lovely charm on my bracelet with that saying. I said ohhh thank you. He’s like you don’t get it do you? And he’s right I don’t get it. I live in the moment. My poor mom trying to teach me what tomorrow is, my response always was how do you know? It might not come? Now, I’m not pessimistic by any means can you really be pessimistic at 4? My thoughts, you can only count on what you have.
This all ends up with me telling time by Laverne and Shirley’s. How long will it take us to get there? 1-½ Laverne and Shirley’s. Now, that’s something I could see and comprehend in my mind. Now that I’m older I rather like to think it’s an Einstein thing seeing time in belts that weave together. It sounds like some theory, doesn’t it?
So as 2008 rolls by I have to reflect on yesterdays and tomorrows and it makes me incredibly uncomfortable not only for remembering but my own internal issues.
2008 Bits of wisdom and reflections
Professionally brought in a 48% increase from 2007. Brought tons of new clients and forced me to say no to projects. Learning to say no is so hard and it’s a process but it’s really saying yes to what you want and need to do. Bruce, Kerry and my mom would probably tell me to weed out about half of my clients but alas I’m too emotionally involved.
I actually made it to 33. Not understanding time this was quite an accomplish all in itself.
Marriage- 4 years and counting. Eight years in total. I still laugh when my single friends look like I have it all together because I’m “married”. What I’ve learned so far is that marriage is wonderful but only wonderful if you realize it and work at it everyday. Somehow I think those single girls think that after “I do”, it’s all done. They’ll learn. What’s the perfect gift for the 5th anniversary? What has meaning? What can I give next? To always want to give and not sure how, is not always easy either.
Balance- Learning to balance life, work, and play is something in constant strain with me. If left up to me I would work probably far more than I should. Since we got back from vacation in the fall, I’ve tried to breathe more. I don’t feel the need to get up at 6am and work till 7pm anymore? 8am will suffice. Fitting in breakfast and a work out is allowable. And really what kind of life is it to have if one doesn’t have time for breakfast? Having my own business doesn’t mean I have to give up breakfast and time with my family. It means saying no… And if a client doesn’t like the time-line they can choose someone else. The people before them got their project in before them? That’s not my fault.
Inspiration- I need to be inspired. Doesn’t matter what a new cd, new book, new sights… I need to be creative and feel whole.
We learned that Zebra’s barked.
That sometimes we need to put the book down not all literature is good- A.K.A Love in the Time of Cholera. Bruce’s demon was the Biography of Walt Disney. ( I kinda want to read it though )
Glogg catches fire even with the lid on.
Friends. Sometimes it’s ok to let them go to make room for new. Don’t have to forget but sometimes it’s for the best. It doesn’t mean you’re not there for them but you gotta move on.
You can’t fix crazy.
If it’s broken, you don’t have to fix it you can take it a repair shop.
Off the list. If I get stood up your off the list!
Bad butter is disgusting.
It’s best to drink wine quickly. Vinegar doesn’t go down so smoothly.
And of course, That’s how it goes whenever it snows!
Paying with cash saves money.
2009- Not into resolutions but I do have a list of tasks
Go to Forte- because I always forget about it!
DONE! Watch a sunset, I haven’t really noticed one in so long. I can’t remember a sunset with Bruce. Bruce, sunset picnic coming your way!
Take Kasper for more walks. His floppy ears make the day better no matter what.
Gotta try the new Fenton Grill
Another one we always say we’re gonna do and never do. Concerts at Allen Park in the summer.
DONE! We never made it for wings last summer at the Casino! Bad!
Play a game of Bocce cause we were slugs last year!
Make room for new friends.
ALMOST 22 for Bruce 5 for me Read more – Bruce is pushing for 25… That might be a wee bit too aggressive for me.
Wine Pairing at Town Club never have done that!
Bruce wants to finish a short story.
DONE! Work more outside of my boring office. WiFi is out there.
Truly learn Flash and not just dabble.
Ohhh lord, Bruce is laying it out we’re going to the Smithsonian. ROAD TRIP!
HALFWAY Make a family tree, learn our roots. Rattle a few skeletons in the family closet.
Experience the classic in life, movies, literature, visit the haberdasher and bring back the hat (Bruce’s thought) whatever happened to the 40’s?
HALFWAY- We have been eating outside a lot
Sit at the dining room table once a week, bring back the old family values. Remember the Walton’s?